We are groovy

Life has been so weird. 

Garth went to Oklahoma in September and is now on his way home.. For Good! 

It was a bust, oil field is dragging whatevs

So,, he's in Texas finding a new job! He's such a hard worker he hates to sit around. I tried convincing him to do unemployment 😂 he was not having it! 

We are super close i feel like this is the most close we have ever been. Distance makes the heart grow fonder. Oh how that's true! I miss him like crazy. I was watching some tv show on Hulu and the husband and wife are getting their kids ready for vacation and i got so weepy. Hahaha

I was just like "uh what's wrong with me"

He'll be home soon and than hopefully we will be moving to where he found his job. 

Than we will be celebrating our very special baby boys 6th birthday! 😢 

Last year he had a great birthday. Huge minecraft party. But this year I think I'll rent the theatre and invite his friends from school. Grandmas house is just to crazy. And small. He wants a stampy cat cake it's a cat man from minecraft. The boy loves cats and minecraft. His new thing is paw patrol. His favorite music is 21 pilots. 

He loves cheese rolls and mini eggo chocolate chip pancakes. He's getting better at being patient with Collins. He's catching on to things at school, which he loves!! I love hearing his story's from his grand adventure at school. So much fun!!

Ok check this stud out! He's 1 going on 15. He's crazy smart! And such a little beast. He does everything and anything naughty. He has this high pitched scream he does under his paci. It's hilarious!!! He's such a blessing to our family, he makes everyone smile. I can't help but kiss those baby cheeks every damn day 

vacay part 2

Disneyworld is so awesome. we learned a few things for when we go again. but it was really magical. we did Harry Potter world on Christmas. where I got YES a wand. Bellatrix Lastrange wand to be exact. Chocolate frogs and love potion.

There are a few things we didn't know about in advanced like the magic bands you use they are not like a debit card they are charging everything to your room and than at the end of your stay they take it all out at once. uhhh so we never kept tracked of what we spent because we figured it was just withdrawing from our account! we didn't go negative or not have enough we had saved over 4,000 so we could relax on this vacation without worrying about money. it was just a shock to see that in a week we had spent $914 in three parks. which was ok haha.

Pinterest was a bust I got all my info from there and yeah it sucked!!! no joke. I read on multi pages that it would rain and be freezing at night. well I checked the weather and there was chance of rain and lots of fog. so I packed one pair of shorts and the rest pants and one dress. BUST it was HOT HOT HOT. I loved our resort the Port Orleans Riverside. beautiful and covered in trees and swamps. its awesome. the housekeeping was amazing with all our messes. the only thing there was no microwave but in the lobby a 5 min walk from our room was a buffet type deal where you pick what you want from many windows. so that wasn't to bad but that got expensive. The taxi rides were expensive to. like $40 one way. we only needed one to Universal Studios but it was $80 and you need two days at universal one day is not enough.

On Christmas night we went to Disney Springs its a open to the public place with shopping and restaurants. its a bus or boat ride to your hotels. not like in Disney Land where its connected to Disney. But it had some way cute stores. We bought a buzz and woody from the toy store. Chocolate from Ghriedelli. Ate dinner at the TREX. the inside is loud and dark every so often the dinosaurs go off and growl. there is a ice age, volcano, and a aquarium. really neat. well garth had took Collins out so I could pay and when Coop and I were walking out people were screaming and running and crowding in I couldn't figure out what was going on. So I kept walking and Garth called me in such a panic he kept saying are you ok? where are you? I was like uh at the restaurant duh. He said that someone came running into the lego store saying there was a shooter and that everyone had to take cover in a back room. Here I am walking around I had no idea. so we met up and everyone was so scared that everyone started leaving. so the boats took off and we had to catch the bus. than cops and a helicopter came, after we got to our room we read about how it was a drunk fight and the guy had said I will shoot you. so they were arrested. It was like the dream you have but never thinking of it coming true. it was so scary after my adrenaline went down. My family could have actually been in a mass shooting. So we decided to have a day in the hotel and not leave our resort. plus you need one of those days anyway, just to relax and go swim and do laundry. yes do laundry hahaha it saves you lots of stress when you get home.

So yes go to Disneyworld its so amazing. Yes go to Universal Studios and spend all your money at harry potter world. relax and have a good time.

Vacay Update.

My family is sleeping, well my hubby and youngest are. Coop is just causing shenanigans all over the room. Swinging this freaking light sabor at everything.

Ok! We missed our first flight by 10 min literally it was scheduled to leave at 6:50. The hotel in Denver Told us the shuttle would take us to the airport at 5:30. Well.... There's my first mistake we should have left at 4:30. Alright, this is where I learned all the types of people in the world. We had to make a stop at a neighboring hotel, you had to sign the list to get on to assure you were on it. Well people started loading and more and more came on. So the driver said some have to get off if you aren't on the list. No one moved. Than these two girls with wet hair who had woken up late said they weren't leaving. He said fine but at least move so the older couple could sit down, they wouldn't. So on we went. Got to the airport our luggage was 3 lbs over so we had to pay $50. Security took an hour. Than Collins had a freaking mellllllt down. I'm juggling him a diaper bag and a stroller that would not fold up. So after buying new tickets 1,750 dollars later we caught a flight to charlotte (2 hours long) than hurried and fed the boys and back on a plane to Orlando. Poor Collins was so hungry for real food and a major wet diaper change. Plus the poor baby hadn't pooped all day. Check in was fast and it was dark so finding our room was cray! They are individual villas with 15 or so rooms per building and we were building 34! So off we went. But magic express would bring our luggage. A nice shower than some Cajun style dinner. Relaxing in our room. We are at the port Orleans riverside. It's beautiful!!! And reminds me so much of New Orleans. It's swampy and crickets  at night. And a lot of squirrels.

Today {Wednesday} we got a late start. We were tired. So we went to Hollywood studios. In my plan this wasn't something we wanted to do in a day we were going to break it up with Epcot. We went at 8 and we got done at 4. But we missed several things we wanted to do. The toy story mania, Star Wars, and Indiana jones these are movie type deals not the ride. We did go to Disney JR live. Ok it was cute!!! Collins loved seeing Mickey and Sophia, and his Stuffie. They were puppet type things age a live girl who narrates than things that come from the sky. We ate at Pizza Planet. We wanted to hit up the arcade but Collins was so hungry and tired.

I'll go on tomorrow after we do more! But so far so good. We haven't had any melt downs! And I'm enjoying my hubby time. I can't keep my hands off him! I'm kissing him or squeezing his butt all day!

cray fish

My life has like literally been stressful.. I never complain, because there is someone out there who has I worse than me. but every once in awhile I can. I have the best friends in the world. my very best friend is 780 miles away from me. { Garth } I miss him so much. I live at my grandmas with my sweet handsome butthole sons. But there's just something about having your honey home with you every night. I miss him like crazy. But tomorrow he is coming home for two weeks and one week of that we are spending in FLORIDA. I couldn't think of a better memory and Christmas for two boys. plus I need to get some down time with my sexual.

so really it's been really crazy to plan this all. I am a planner though. I love it. I love to be in charge. so a week between Disneyworld, Universal studios, Epcot, Animal Kingdom, and Harry Potter world. I can do this. haha its the packing Im like struggling with. Garth has our suitcase in Oklahoma with him.

and

we need to move together. he's been in OK for like two months now. and I need him. haha ok so do his children. but like the wife needs him. So next will be finding a house. Renting of course. and do we need to take like everything some things. none things. I don't know.

I have been trying to keep  myself sane for two months. so if you ever need something to do:
1. watch Longmire on Netflix.
2. Plan a vacation.
3. Watch Jane the Virgin on Netflix than start season two on Hulu.
4. Read the lyrics to NWA songs so you can sing them in the car.
5. Clean your car.
6. Watch Gossip Girl on Netflix. its really cute.
7. Watch Awkward on Hulu. TEAM MATTY
8. im not going to say workout because ive done none of that.
9. I did take up a coffee habit. I go every morning after coops on the bus.
10. watch movies you wont finish on Xmovies8.com
11. Keep surprises for yourself. like I bought nail polish and decided to paint my nails one day.
12. take quizzes online

Collins is 15 months old. crazy right! he's 22lbs and talks talks. does dance a little. unwraps all the presents. loves the hot tub. yells at everyone. he is so friendly. loves his boob juice.

My boys fight haha

My title is what is happening right now. haha my 11 month old and my 5 year old FIGHT!! haha they push each other, they are so hilarious. Well the little one does get hurt more than the big one.

End of the week. and nothing exciting happened. But some things I'm loving are:

1) mangos freezer dried.
2) Chipotle Rubbed Jerky.
3) Essie color Play Date
4) Just go with it and Whiplash are my go to movies
5) Friday Night Lights I have watched 5 seasons in 2 weeks. haha That Tim Riggins is a FREAKING babe. oh my word!!!!
6) I still love coopers Citrus Lane boxes he gets every month. they have the cutest stuff.
7) our little Chihuahua his name is Romeo. He's the sweetest little guy ever.
8) I am on the hunt for the Entertainment issue with Jax Tellar

well...

life has been... well... exciting. we've had family drama, reunion, shopping trips, a move..

we are currently in my Grandparents camper. we were renting and decided that buying our own home was something we wanted to do. we've rented the last 3 years since we sold our first home. ups and downs. lost lots of money. ugh. well now we are trying to decide if we should stay in vernal or move to Co. so that's the move part.

we went to West Jordan (we is my two cousins, myself, and the boys.) to visit my Aunt Kim. She took us to the Traverse Mountain Outlets in Lehi by Cabelas. Ok they outrank Tanger outlets in Park City by like 100% they are so amazing. Busy. Their Gap was huge I love the Gap. Its expensive but their kids clothes hold up so well. There is a Jcrew, Vans, American Eagle, All the good kids shops, H&M. I bought tons of stuff and didn't spend over $300.

My Grandma Brown sister has a cabin passed Duchense. So she had a family reunion with her kids and grandkids and my grandmas kids and grandkids. it was a lot of fun. they had raffles and drawings. smoked a lamb and a pig. salads everywhere. the best part was we got to sit on the porch and talk, make jokes, laugh. that cabin was b.e.a.uuuutiful (spell It out like jim carrey its better).

on a more serious note... my family has a drug addiction problem. some of us even suffer from alcohol abuse. Personal but my Mom has been a drug addict since I was born. she is almost 50 {48} so its been on and off for 24 years. She would be clean for 2 months and than be dirty. It has always been that way. And somehow along the way she had my aunt {her sister} and my oldest sister follow her. Their choice of drug was Crystal Meth. You've seen what someone looks like on Meth, my sister is a poster of that. So, drugs are something I don't take lightly. My cousin whom I love very dearly with all my heart, whom I consider my sister more than a cousin has fallen into the ces pool of Heroin. She did Drill Team and was a Cheerleader in High School. All it took was a low life piece of crap boy to drag her into it. She was kind of a trouble maker in High School, like staying out to late, being busted at party's. She got one consumption. But drugs. They are dirty. They make you steal and stink and make you ugly. They take your personality and throw it away. They take any shred of humanity you have and step on it. You are never the same. Even if you go to Rehab or Jail. You just meet more people who are like you. You learn better tricks. You are better off going to a morgue and picking out a burial plot. She has stolen over 5,000 from two sets of grandparents and a parent. That's not including the property she has stolen or the goods she has pawned. I feel like her being arrested and being sent to jail which will happen soon. Might be a wake up call. or maybe something to brag about and get attention from. she's also a narcissistic attention whore. she loves everybody to drop what they are doing and go to her rescue. She has made so many suicide attempts or more like the girl who cried wolf. It's heartbreaking. She has 5 younger siblings who are watching her go threw this. She's not alone. But I feel like most drug addicts act like they have no one. self centered. They will ruin a relationships with anyone. Steal from anyone. It's a sickness. There really is no cure. Even if you stay sober for 50+ years you still have that in the back of your mind. Like a ticking time bomb. I have seen some people go threw rehab, jail, and have absolutely nothing and come out and be a better person. one time. the other people they go back. they love the lifestyle. Being broken down, poor, hungry, homeless, beaten up, sick. Than I see the ones who can't make it out so they take their own life's. I understand that now.

We all have skeletons. Nobody's family is perfect. We shouldn't hide these people in our family's. We should try and help them. Not give them everything they want. Which is usually money. Give them a place to stay to sober up for the night. Most likely they will go out the next day and get high. Don't give them cash. Don't let them steal from you. Good Luck to whomever needs it.

POSITIVE my baby is 12 months in one month.

your last day

IF today was your last day...

What would you want your last meal to be??

Who would you want to be spending it with?

Where would you want to be?

 

I find myself pondering the everyday struggles. Either good or bad. I worry about what might happen to garth while he's at work. Or what would happen if I was held at gun point. Of course I am the hero and totally kick the persons ass. I just finished a book The Rabbit Back Literature  Society. its one of my new favorites. and the ending has you thinking about the whole book. Every small detail. I like to always think about what ifs. My cousin and I use to play this game with all my neighbors. If they had a new car in their driveway for example we would think of scenarios of why that new car was there. like the wife had a secret lover or the husband was really a drug dealer. super funny!!!

 

 

so my last meal.. you have to think long and hard. its your last meal. you think at first oh juicy hamburger with cheese. ok but what kind of hamburger?? kangaroo, buffalo, beef. Than your bun hogey, regular old bun, onion. Cheese ohh American cheese, munster, gouda, pepper jack, mozz. see haha its a lot to think about. than do you want toppings.

but no that wouldn't be my last.

 I want calamari and cheese sticks for an appetizer. than ice cold champagne. ohhhh the bubbly. in a tall pretty glass. than I want a salad. the freshest veggies, cucumbers, peas, tomatoes, cheese, croutons, blue cheese. for my main course, chicken parmesan with lots of spicy tomato sauce. extra parm cheese on top. on the side cheese stuffed jalapeno bread. for dessert I want a four layer chocolate cake with chocolate frosting with strawberries and raspberry's.

think of a place at your home where you love the most. mine would be in my kitchen or in my bed room with fresh clean sheets with my boys. with clean counters I hate things on my counters with an empty sink. ( moving is not easy for me) I like to be surrounded by the people I love most. I love being at my grandmas house with my cousins and aunts. I love my aunts (my dads sisters) they are like two big sisters. I could easily tell them everything. when we move I want to build a house so bad. easier said than done. but I want a kitchen with space for a 15 person table. I want a big table that my boys and their friends can come sit at. where I can read and eat ha. where I will serve my babies breakfast, lunch, and dinner. You would think the living/sitting area would be the center of your home. but to me its my kitchen.

my last day spent I would want people I love. all my friends I would want to be on a lake in a cabin, with a swimming pool, bbqers, and lots of food and drinks. I mean all my friends.. people I don't talk to everyday or even once a year, my family, my children, my hubby, my cousins.
I defiantly want to be at peace, I don't want to be thinking of the people who did me wrong or caused me sorrow. I want to be thinking of something happy. I want to be with a clear clean mind.

think about it. live it. be it.

xoxoxox