Wednesday, May 18, 2011

My Son My Baby My Life.

since we've had our precious baby Cooper. our whole world has changed we go to primary children's every 6 months for a neonatal follow up. We visit dr. pollary every 2-4 weeks for check ups. Were sick a lot more and dont leave the house as often as we use to.! We've lost a lot of sleep do to the fact that he sleeps in our bed still. Not going on dates without him because hes such a mommas boy! but i wouldnt trade anything for him! he has made me realize what life really is. Sometimes its a struggle and i dont know how i will make it threw the day.
May 14 we celebrated his first birthday 2 days after his due date. is was windy and horrible weather i cried because i had put so much work into it being absolutely perfect! it was curious george theme and adorable. he had so many presents to open but fell asleep before he could do it. Im not sure on having other children because i wouldnt want what to happen with cooper happen again. Primary children's is a great hospital staff is amazing but to see another one of my babies go threw that might put me out! enjoy your children skip date nights and the bar or whatever you do to stay home with them and stare at them while they sleep or listen to the breath. its amazing and im glad i had Cooper when i did! it has made me a stronger believer in GOD i will argue and argue with anyone who thinks god does not live. I have proof sitting by me as i write. Hes now 15 lbs and 15 months old. he stands 26inches and has 4 teeth. all ten toes and fingers. and not a single health problem!

ive told so many people coopers birth story but ive never actually written it all down. September i took 2 pregnancy test they were both positive. WOW! is what i thought how exciting. (garth and i were having troubles with some friends so i was actually thinking GREAAAAT!) I was bestfriends with Ashlee B. she told me about dr griffth that was her doctor and i should go to him. my first appointment i went alone garth was working. It was amazing you hear the hearbeat they give you tons of things to look at it.! when i went to the doctor i was 12 weeks along already! i had no idea what i was supposed to do now! he never once mentioned prenateles or anything like that. a few weeks passed and while carrying laundry upstairs i felt something running down my leg looked down and it was blood! i just started crying. called my doctor they told me it was commen to come in anyway. so of course i drove 90 miles an hour to the hospital they did my first ultrasound she looked at the blood spots told me they were common i would be fine just not to have sex or do anything strainuous. she then asked me if i wanted to know the sex i looked at her very surprised and said i thought you couldnt tell what the sex was until you were 15 weeks. she laughed ands said " honey your 16 weeks along" so jumping from 12 to 15 weeks. then i started to worry that dr griffth was a fraud... days went on and on and on.. until i reached 18 weeks early decemeber. I was getting ready to take my cousins to the movies. I went into my grandmas kitchen and started having really bad pains in my back ( contractions) and i tried to stand and couldnt almost like i was pralalized. then WHOOOSH something just soaked my pants. My grandmas asked me if i peed.. we both looked at eachother and started crying! we ran to the car and drove to the hospital i was admitted in and they tried and tried to contact griffth NO ANSWER. so dr. b came in and told me that our baby was to small to be deliverd and i would loose it that night. i was in the shock that i couldnt breathe i couldnt talk cry NOTHING. i was loosing blood like no other. he didnt no what to do because he has never seen anything like it. i sat in the vernal hospital for 2 days expecting to deliver my baby. they told me to plan a funeral if i wanted to... so did i had a special coffin made for his little body. they also told me i could possibly die giving birth because i was at such high risk for infection. so much to take on in a short amount of time. the tow days past and NO BABY. he had a srtong heartbeat and moving around like he was supposed to. i was put on bed rest and told that i would loose him ooner or later to not get my hopes up. my stepmom when i was a little kid told me she had 2 preeemie babies and she would help me with a better doctor. she told her doctor about me and i went into see him. he told me totally different things then waht dr. g told me. i was happy once again. i went IMC in murray utah when i was 24 weeks. they told me to plan on living in there hospital until he was born. i was scaried then no family or husband for months..... long story short i stayed there for ONE week. on my 25 week i gave birth to the most tinest baby ive ever laid eyes on. It took 3 hours of labor. I was only dialted to a 6 and they said that was good enough. i took two pushes and i he was out I didnt hear a cry nothing. they put him threw a window and told us they would do what they could wiht him. i was sent up to my room and waited for family to come. Garth and my grandparents were the first to see him! i was trying my hardest to get any breast milk out of me that i could! then hours later garths parents showed up and they saw him! then it was my turn. only 4 hours after birth i waddled downstairs to see my little miracle. I couldnt believe what i was seeing a ONE POUND BABY he was the size of a dollar.